I Hope It's Not Too Little Too Late

There was a point in my life where I thought it was cool to mention names as it is in real life. I thought it was OK to post just about everything in my blog. Obviously, I was so wrong. Why on earth would I made a blog in the first place if I just wanted to keep it to myself. Right?

The thing is, people do actually read my blog - real people. I mean, of course some of my friends who know my blog url - who are also my faithful readers - are real people too. But I didn't know that there are more people who literally check my posts.

First of all I want to say thank you for being with me all these times. Thank you for reading my silly, immature posts. And because of that I want to apologize with all sincerity and humbleness for any offends that I've made, any negative words that I've said, and to any hurtful and inconsiderate thoughts that I've poured. I was young and I didn't know better.

And for the same reasons I'm deleting and/or editing some of my posts. I've been checking on one of my oldest posts and I am so embarrassed both by my grammatical errors and my babbling irresponsibly. Sure, my grammar is not perfect now, I don't think I'll ever have perfect grammar, English will forever be my second language.

Anyway, I've deleted some of my posts. I don't know if any of those people that I've offended had read my posts - Gee, I really hope they haven't - but to those who have been the victim of my babbling mouth and know it: "I'm so very sorry." I didn't know what I think. I couldn't even remember half of the things that I wrote. I think things were getting stable when I turned 19. But Year 2007-2008 were all about hormones changing and boys crushing. And me being a smart-ass with my thoughts, of course.

All in all, I'd love to start it all over again with a clean slate. I hope you'd forgive me and if you don't, I'd understand and just, please, try to forget and realize that I didn't know better.

God bless you all.

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I Hope It's Not Too Little Too Late

What. The.

It's June. Can't believe I haven't posted anything since March. But believe me, I did try to write something before. I just couldn't seem to find anything to write. Yep, I've been having writer's block ever since my last post. Plus I did a lot of traveling these past months. I only spent twelve days in my hometown on May - twelve days! Can you imagine that? I think I know how it feels to be a backpacker now, just, you know, with luggages instead of a backpack.

So…

I never really talk about my love life right? (LIE! Haha)

I mean I've never talked about it in details… Right?

I'm going to write a story about, well, you can say 'love'. But it's not really about that actually. Just, read me out:


I love starting a story with a quote, and I posted this on instagram days ago;

We don't meet people by accident. They are meant to cross our path for a reason.

I've been going out with a guy for these past three months (going out, but not in a relationship, and it's not dating). Anyhow, we kept in touch for the whole three months I was in Perth.

Now this guy and I have one similarity: we're both ignorant. He's way more ignorant than me, and I think, somehow it kept me intrigued. I mean I keep on telling my friends and practically everyone that I want a decent guy who is kind, tender, faithful, funny, smart and believes in God. Apparently I am attracted to badboy. If you really think about it, half of my exes were and looked like badboys, one of them was a jerk, another one was the truest form of womanizer, and my last ex had many piercings. And this guy has tattoos. I am sooo into guys with tattoo (but not too many) - don't judge me. Just how much more messed up my taste in men can be?

Back to the story. Let's call this guy Tat. So Tat doesn't talk much, he smokes, and is a Christian. I think if I was born as a male, I would've turned out being like Tat, minus the smoking part. And the not-so-talkative part. We've known each other for pretty much eight months now but the first time we actually went out together after the wedding was on February.

After that Tat and I were going out together whenever we had time, between his works and futsal and my flights schedule. He never really said that he's interested in me but he took me to his friends' birthday dinner, or just hanging out with them. His friends, on the other hand, thought I was his girlfriend. But of course, I wasn't. And I thought it was okay, because I enjoyed things the way they were. Until tonight. Well two nights ago.

I found out that I was one of his options. It didn't really feel good because people (people who know him and me) started to notice us a couple and I'm pretty sure I looked like an idiot this whole time. So today (yesterday) I asked him about the other girl casually. And he said she's not his girlfriend. So I asked him if he likes the girl. And he said he doesn't know. Because we'll never know what will happen in the future.

And all I could think about that time was: What. The. Heck.

I mean I did go out with my other friends as well, but I was never regarded as a couple with them. Most importantly I must looked like an idiot in front of HIS friends. Because, of course, they know he's seeing this other girl too. GOSH. I felt so stupid!

Anyways, I think I've learned my lesson here. We've crossed path. And I guess I learned a thing or two from this situation:
- Now I know that I do love badboy look, I mean, jerk face, piercings, tattoos. The evidences are so blatant. Geez. But I still want a decent guy. With a tattoo. Ha!

- I think I've just met a guy who's exactly like me. I mean it's not really his fault making me an option (of course it's his fault! But I know he's only human). I've been making many guys as one of my options, for way longer time than this. And now I know it sucks to be treated that way. I have never really given a thought about their feelings. I'm sorry guys.

- Ignorant is not a good trait for someone's personality.

I don't think I met him by accident.

But I also think that we're not meant to be.

We can still be friends though.

There goes my story.

It's not really about love, right?

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Posted by Unknown in friends, lesson, mistake, quote, relationship

What. The.

How Does it look?

I think this skin was once used by V.. Tell me if I'm wrong but this skin enchanted me.. :) I like it. Do you? Or do you prefer the previous one??

Despite all these new appearance, I want to say that today is very much messed. I missed my QUIZ!!! My Statistic quiz!! T.T I woke up late as a result of sleeping at 5. Why oh why I became this lazy that I had to finish my finance report this morning and ended up wake up at 10.30?! I emailed my teacher to beg for his mercy.. And so I can keep doing the quiz.. It marks 6% but it is all very important!

And btw, I've read that Queen of Babble In The Big City and I have to tell you, it was not what I've expected from Meg. The story was not going as I wanted to and I believe as any other readers wanted to. Thank God, she wrote the next series, Queen of Babble Gets Hitched and as far as I read, it leads to the ending that I've predicted in the first place. I just so happy Meg doesn't do the same mistake as what she did to Mia and Michael.

Either way, she's still one of my favorite author :)

I need some sleep now, my head is dizzy, I am so scared I'm going to sick.. I mean, mid exam is due on next week!!! It's gonna be THIS week very soon!!!

C ya!

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How Does it look?

Unbelieveable

I JUST FORGOT THAT I HAVE A GROUP MEETING TODAY AT 2!!! Shitt im so forgetful!! == and when I was rushing to get ready,, i just realize something: I hadn't got no cash at all! How am I supposed to take a bus? Nay nay..

Me just sit here all day, as the result - watching youtube and chillin'. Told others that I coudn't make it.. :S damn, I got this acute forgetful syndrome I guess..

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Posted by Unknown in friends, mistake, silly

Unbelieveable

My bad

i just realize that i've made so many mistakes during posting.. (grammar and mistyped).. so sorry for that. thats my bad, hahaha. i'll try to make it better next time.. hoho.

oh!! and the time is actually correct! nice...~

but not for the tagboard...

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My bad