I'm Not Usually Like This

Been sick for these past two days and it felt terrible. I remember I used to enjoy being sick when I was little because back then I had reason not to go to school for a few days. That was very foolish. I guess us humans did many foolish things when we're little.

Anyways, I want to talk about a completely different stuff. I'm getting better now if you're wondering though *wink*.

Back to the topic.

I don't think I ever posted about this before (I'm sorry if I have) but sometimes I encounter dreams where I met spiritual evils or ghosts. And I'm not saying that they were real.. Well they could be real, I'd never know. Nevertheless, I have always fought the evil spirits through the name of Jesus in prayer - I'm not kidding, even if they're just dreams - and I guess that fact made me know the depth of my faith to Him. And I was so proud of myself. Because I stood still in His Name even if it's just in a dream.

You know what I'm saying??

But just this morning I woke up with a different dream. A dream so different it scares the hell out of me.  Once again I encountered mystical creatures in my dream. This time they were the spirits of two little girls with short hair. They were asking me to send them some clothes for them. And they said they like my green shirts, as well as some other things I couldn't remember clearly.

So I asked them, "If I burn these stuff, would you actually accept it?"

And they said yes.

And then I started to cry and walked right through my closet, taking out as much clothes as I could - the green ones and the pink ones. I was so afraid not to give them those clothes. I was preparing a place for the burning incense for the dead when my sister's voice told me, "Why are you doing this? Aren't you a Christian?" And during that time, somehow, the two ghosts weren't there anymore. But I was still so scared and cried.

That's where my dream ended.

I think, somehow, this dream has once again reflected the depth of my faith towards Jesus. The question is, am I doubting Him now? Only my heart knows. And I think the answer is yes. At least there was that little voice that reminds me about Him. It's scary to think how my heart could be led astray without me realizing it. I don't ever want that to happen.

Human heart is literally weak.

Guard your heart, peeps.

Always guard your heart.

Strengthen your faith, no matter what.

Now you may think I'm overreacting. I might be.

But the advice here is for the greater good. :)

Put your faith in Him. And be careful not to be led astray by fear, worry, or doubt. Because they'll eat you from the inside, very slowly. So just be careful.

God bless us all!

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I'm Not Usually Like This

Future House

This is a reply post of Luke's Dream House

I love daydreaming and planning stuff in my mind. Often it didn't come out the way I actually thought it would had been. Often, it turned out to be better ;) However, reading the dream house post got me thinking: what will my house looks like - if I ever have one?

So. When I have my own family and get to manage our own house, I'd say I love a minimalist house. I don't want to live in a castle-size house with just seven people live in it (I planned to have 3 kids and 2 maids (:). And it's not environmentally friendly.

It's hard to imagine how it would be exactly but I definitely want my own reading room so I can put all my books. And also a mini home theatre. And gym. Ok, maybe I want a mini castle :p kidding! Gym is not necessary, but I do want a small garden. If I'm rich enough I'd love to have something like a secret garden. A garden that fills with beautiful flower and a pond in the middle of it. But I don't think I can take care of it by myself so maybe I'll just stick to that one small garden.

What else.. Hmm.. Well I want new furnitures though. I love the smell of new things around me. It doesn't have to be grande, you know what I'm saying? As long as it's comfy. I mean IKEA is pretty cool for me. Even Nick Carter uses it. And maybe, through times I'll replenish the old stuff with new ones (only if its really old and useless).

Hmm.. This is starting to confuse me. On one hand, I'd love to have stuff that fills with memory - like in the movie UP. That was priceless. But I also want a bit of luxurious. Hmm.. hmm.. In that case, I'd choose high quality furnitures in a medium size house! :D And I would fill the house with lots of pictures and memories. I feel quiet happy if I can have a house like the one that I'm living now. But it'll be better if it's not a 'shop-house' or 'rumah-toko'.

What else?

Can't think of anything.

Anyway, it doesn't matter what or how the house would be actually, as long as I have the pictures - train of memories that I can follow from right here until I have my own grandchildren. :) And it's quite hard for me to picture myself having a family. LOL. I don't know why. I think I'm too sleepy right now. But it's fun to think about stuff like this. I keep on changing the environment and the room design in my head but I believe my house is going to be one freaking fine house ;)

Good nite everyone!

GBU

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Future House

Dreams

What is wrong with me these days? I keep on having strange dreams! And today is the ultimate strangest on - and creepy for me.

Last few days I've been dreaming about the same thing twice. It's about the shape of the clouds. I think I mentioned it before. Two days ago, I dream about dog - this also had happened twice. Once I even dreamed about lesbians! Oh dear Lord... The other day I dreamed about fish, snakes and I forgot what else. And last night is the worst: I dreamed my already-supposedly-in-heaven gramps tried to take me away!

In my dream, I slept and dreamed he was there to take me - flying! I don't know why but in my dream's dream, I know that he's not alive!! How scary is that? And then when I woke up in my dream, I did scare. In a dream! I mean how bizzard is that? And strange right? How come I dream about things like that.. It freaks the hell out of me.

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Dreams

being organized or what

You know how every time you wish that things you do will go exactly the way it's been planned because it's sooooo important but it turn out to be.. a total mess??

Well that's what happened to me. Just this morning. I had an exam this morning, 9 AM - accounting mid semester exam - and I slept at 3 in the morning! I had this plan to sleep at 1, but J called mom and then we chatted and the time turned to 2! Just yet, when I was lying on my bed, insomnia cameee!!!! aarggghh.. But that's not the worst part, coz I had set the alarm at 5.30 (I know it's weird, but sometimes I set the alarm one hour before the actual time so when I woke up I can stop the alarm and set it to the right time so I feel as if I sleep longer) but you know.. sometimes it just happened! I don't whether its my dream* or I was just too tired to re-set my alarm.. I was awaken by J's alarm instead of mine, and it was 8.45 already!! x(

I was rushing, running, stumbling, whatever and I took taxi instead of bus today - no much choices left.. And there were no - not at all, nada! - empty taxi in the morning. I was like, God please help me, find me taxi!! It was like forever until an empty taxi came. Yeah.. the good news is I still had my exam - fiuhh.. But I missed the explanation about the question that has a possibility to come up in the exam - or further, final exam.

See, every time I have a plan, it will screw! I never had a plan done perfectly. I don't know why.. that's why I rarely plan something, because I know I will be disappointed in the end. I really really wonder how someone can be so organized and has everything right on their hands and it is always because they have plans and backup plans. duhhh??

* I just had a weird dream again!! this time I was like some rich granny grand-daughter and she wanted me to be a model of bikini or something similar to that.. huahahha.. and she told me to wait in the hotel, but I was wearing this bikini-a-like thing!! and the security tried to pull me out of the hotel but I forced not to.. == Oh and before my dream led to this, I dreamed about a boy.. can't remember the face but we were kind of get together.. weird righhtttt??? maybe it's because our chat yesterday, Harry. hauhahaha

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10 things I like about Finance

10. The Lecturer is nice and clever
9. The subject is not really hard. At least for now..
8. Even though I've skipped the class once, it seems that I don't even got left behind..
7. The assignment is easy..
6. The quiz? yeah, same thing happen
5. You don't have to calculate manually, you only use calculator for that
4. The formula isn't too complicated, such as accounting
3. The tutor is also nice and clever and cute
2. The tutor always give you practices and go around class to check whether you know how to answer the question

and the reason why I really like Finance is:

1. My financial tutor, Shaun Malligan, is hot!

hahahaha

Anyway I guess there's something wrong with my lay-out because the tiny images won't showed. Yeah, so I deleted them.. haha. I'd come with a new skin, but maybe it'll take some time..

And I'll move to Mascot sooner than I thought! Ha! The church minister himself offered me to move sooner coz he felt uneasy when he saw me go back and forth from Padstow to Mascot - or maybe he just can't stand anymore with my sorry-but-i'm-not-coming-home-today messages. huahaha.. anyway still glad about that..

additional..:
I was having another weird dream!! - after a long period without dreams.. Okay, I was pregnant!!!! ++ and it was felt so reallll.. oh my.. totally! I can felt that my stomach was so big and I saw a toddler there, who was extremely charming and cute, but I didn't know who he is. He wasn't my cousin or anything.. I hold him but then someone - forgot who - scolded me and warned me that I was gonna lose my child if I carried anything heavy and then we talked about my baby's father. I did remember I said his name but then now I totally forgot whose name I had mention. ckck. I wonder what did this mean..??

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10 things I like about Finance

this and that, I just can't sleep, owkhayy?

ahahHoahhm.. Been sleepy.. I just talked to Ty and we're like gossiping for hours.. (gossip girl - xo.xo.) huehehe

And you know, normally girls will talk about other girls or.., our favorite subject : boys - well, sometimes I prefer food lho.. huahaha. Ty said what she had read before in a novel. It says like this: Women use sex to get love, men love women to get sex.

Huahaha.. How do you think? Sounds weird yet convincing.. *dasar lelaki!* So beware! huahaha

Anyway I just want to put a picture of my family, as V did. Hehe.. Besides I got nothing to blog about anyway..

Here's the picture:

From left to right: J, Mum, Dad, Harto
D, me :)

That was when we were in China - forget the exact location - but it was really beautiful there. I just realize that I'm not going to meet my parents for like six months or more if I stay in Sydney.. T.T and all of my girls!! I hate this part. Really gonna miss you guys.. And also you, C ;)

So lucky I'm gonna meet my blogger buddies today!! :D hahaha.. can't wait.. can't wait..

P.S. I had another weird dream. It's like a whole week of dreams. hahhaa.. So I dreamed about my sisters and I. D and J had a fight and they were like hated each other so much. Then D wanted to kill her (!!) and gave me a bottle of poison and I had to give it to J!! BUTT....., on the other hand, J gave me another bottle of poison so I could give it to D. :s There's no ending btw.. I got all confused and they had peace before I got to kill one of them. Hahaha

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Donald Duck

New skinn!!! :D

Been searching for the right one lately, but I got nothing. Then yesterday I put the benefit of having to 'steal' indovision's line *fufufu* and downloaded as much as I could. Not bad, really, coz I got this skin!! I think it's cute. Hehe. But there are still so many things to do with the codes. I just got the script for comment(s) but haven't put it yet.

Well, today I slept at 3.30 AM, thanks for dad. We went at 10 PM actually last night. He already told me that he wanted to go to the harbour (do you know that in US they use the word harbor?) but I never thought it would take that long!

I ended up counting the time, and looking at those giant trucks carrying whatever they carried (it was a load of coal - batubara?). But then it wasn't really bad, I got to see what my parents do for money. haha

Oh, and by the way, I've know my carer who will take care of me while I'm in Sydney (I'm still under-eighteen until my next birthday). They're not Chinese, and they live 25 minutes far from the city!! x( Not good.. His name is Winson Gouda (it's a cheese! haha) or something similar with that. He has a wife and they have no children. I wish they will serve good food (my sisters once live with Australian, and they served un-eat-able food) and treat me as their own child: I don't want to get abused. == Luckily I just have to stay there for 5 weeks or so! :D Can't wait for the day!! Even though I'm gonna be late for Insearch - I should have been there since June 10th, but I'm going to Sydney on 20th or 23rd.

So I guess this is it for now..

Oh, and it's been two months for me and WK. Not bad, eh? ahahaha

I just remembered. I had a dream about Donald Duck and somehow I became the duck ==', but then I became me, and there was WK too. We were broken up and he got together with M!! huahahahahaa.. Weirdest dream!

P.S. Ry is going to Jakarta for good today.. Aihh, we all will miss him :)

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