A Post Without A Name

Too nice
Too up-tight
Too wild

Too smart
Too serious
Too short

Too tall
Too dull
Too rude

Too different
Too bold
Too free

He doesn't believe in Jesus.
He doesn't get my jokes.
His comments are sometimes annoying.
He did not just say that!!

Have I been too hard on them and myself?
Have I set way too-high standards?
Have I been looking only on the physical appearance?
Have I been fooling myself with this hope?

Is it not possible to meet someone and knowing - even slowly - that they're the one??

Am I - according to some people - being 'too picky'?

Then a voice (not mine) told me, "It's as simple as do you like/love him or not?"

It's not about the standard. It's not about a checklist. It's about your feelings. And if you don't feel it right, then it's not right.

But then again, sometimes I can be really stubborn. What if I'm too uptight to realize that I might be looking for someone who might not even exist??

Maybe I should stop being picky and just give it a try to anyone - according to an advice of another voice.

And a whole different voice answered: "To that, I'd say BE PICKY! You'll be spending the rest of your life with this person."

With that, I can feel my heart at ease - a little.

I think I have to do something that can take my mind off of these things. Too many people here talking about the same thing everyday and it affects me like a disease. I need to do something that can lead me to a 'deep sleep'. You know? Like when God put Adam to a deep sleep and then preparing Eve for him. I need that state of mind. Because based on my experience, God always surprises me in the most beautiful way.

Faith.

That's what I need.

Faith.

:)

And things to do. Thank God it's almost Chinese New Year!