About Writing

Before I begin I just want to mention the fact that my recent post got deleted accidentally (again!) So I'm giving up re-typing or attempting to repost its content (the point is, I think Begin Again is a 3.75/5 stars movie).

Anyways...

Ive been trying to write a story - a novel, you might say - or a beta version of a novel. I used to write short stories with my sisters, gathered them all and made a cover for our compilation of stories so it looked like a magazine. There was also a time back in primary school and in junior high where I wrote a quite long story (one story in each period of time) but both ended up in trash can before I finished them. I kind of regretting throwing them all away but I tore all of them, pages by pages so it was impossible to restore.

I always wrote in Bahasa Indonesia for my stories during my productive moments so it felt a little bit awkward for me to start writing a story in English. And difficult. It is extremely difficult, even though I've been writing hundreds (is it?) of posts in English.

The thing is, writing a story is totally different with writing a post. I have no idea where to start. I don't know whether to start writing in first person POV or third person POV or if I'd do it chapter by chapter or start from the middle. It is all so confusing. I've been making some drafts for my stories but sometimes ideas - different ideas - pouring down in one moment that I was either overwhelmed or end up forgetting them.

And sometimes my mind just goes blank I couldn't type anything. I'd just stare at the blank document, wondering when this brainfart would go away. Sometimes it didn't and I'd just closed the document and did something else instead.

I didn't know writing would be this hard. I always thought it would be as easy as rain falling down from the sky.

I tried so hard yesterday and I got to write two (only two!!) pages - 900ish words. And I spent hours to get there. I'd never underestimate writers. You all rock! I'll never know if I ever get to finish this story - or how far it'll get - but I'm going to try my best and maybe, just maybe, I'll have the courage to let people read it.

:)