#1 -> My little brother (who is 180 cm tall and will turn 18 this year) got back with his ex. Of two years. I KNOW RIGHT! I was shocked. I mean, who would've thought they would get back together after two years?? TWO years!! That's equivalent to 24 months. Or 104 weeks. Whoaaa. My brother is one faithful boy. Anyways I'm happy for him and if everything works out well; (I know it's too soon to tell) Mr. Liar, we might be family one day. HA!
#2 -> Pimples attack hasn't stopped. :(
#3 -> This fact is kind-of a secret. A great secret. A happy secret. If you happen to know my sister, DO NOT congratulate her. You get it? I don't have to exactly say what it is for you to understand right? Cool! It was very romantic, by the way. ;)
Well, I know they're not really fun but I just want to use that term. Moving along after the facts...
With my brother having a girlfriend and my sister's you-know-what, it is unavoidable to notice one little thing: I am the only one in my family who's single. Yaiks! Ok, I know it's not a bad thing being single but the pressure! Everyone's looking at me and giving me those so-when-will-you-get-yourself-someone-honey-? look.
And they have 'the talk' as well:
"You know, this guy is a very good guy."
"You are way too picky!"
"If you don't start find someone you're going to end up being forever alone!"
"Why can't you be like your sister?"
"You do realize you're turning 23 this year? That's old."
"Time is ticking, and it's ticking fast. Isn't there anyone out there whom you find attractive?"
"I think it's time for me to help you finding your partner, cos obviously, you can't do it alone. You want perfection. And nothing perfect in this world."
First of all, 23 years old is not old - yet. And yes, I do realize that no one's perfect! I mean, come on! Look at myself! Look at my exes! Nobody's perfect and I get it. *sigh* And is it wrong to be picky? Choosing the right life partner is very important and I'd like to take some time, in my own pace, to get to know people before I decide anything else. And they might be doing the same about me. Right?? Isn't singleness supposed to be enjoyed and embraced?
I knowwww I've always wanted to get married young. But you want someone who loves you as much as you love him, someone who is loved and approved by your parents, because trust me, when they say something like "You can be with anyone you want," it is not true. They want 'anyone' who they like.
It's hard to fulfill everyone's want. I know I shouldn't think too much about it and who I like matters the most. But I also have that fear of making the wrong decision. You know? What if my parents are right? What if I choose the wrong man? And I've been praying about this. But I can't really tell God's answer. I mean at first I thought I knew it. But then I think I asked too much and got confused. LOL.
And don't get me started on the pressure that I'm having right now. Both my sisters have great partners. How can I compete with them? It's not my nature to compete and I don't want to compete but because they already have their partner it kinda becomes a standard. At least that's what I think my parents think. They're hoping I'd find someone as good as my in-law and in-law-to-be. Trust me, Mom and Dad, I want to find someone like that too (even better, if possible).
So what do I do?
I have no idea.
I think if I just… go with the flow and keep praying and stay in God, He'll show me the way and everything will falls perfectly on its place.
Right?
It's all in God's hands. I'm giving it all back to Him, and I know that the love story that He wrote for me will be the most beautiful one. It's always has been unpredictable and I think that's why I got confused. Because I want to know the ending before even experiencing the beginning.
It's just, sometimes I'm tired to get to know a person from the start. It's fun when you got the right one with the first person. But what if you have to go through one person to another just to find out that they're not the one for you. Then you'll have to start it all over again. You know what I mean?
I think I'm enjoying the ride pretty well, but I'll enjoy it better without those pressuring comments.. :P
PS. I'll be going home in less than a week! :|
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