Back To The Future

We always think and think and think and think and think and - you can continue it yourself - for long-term benefit right? What's with financial, educational and health insurance planning, that's all to make you feel secure about your 'future'.

It is funny how absurd the concept of future, for no one can tell about it accurately, yet there are so many people out there trying to guess it (fortune teller, anyone?). And people do planning, obviously.

But what if somehow along the way, you get confuse with your own plans? What if there are way too many plans to choose - say there were TWO, which are equally promising, yet involving very different path? It's like choosing between two men that are both funny, good-looking, qualified as a husband and most importantly, head over heels for you? Betcha couldn't think who to choose - in my case, WHAT to choose.

I'm thinking - mostly daydream - about my future, a LOT. And I'm still not sure what to do with my life when I'm graduated. Sure I talk a lot bout studying abroad to China or elsewhere but to tell the truth I don't even know what I want!

I want too many things! I have too many dreams! And I'm not sure which dream I should give up or chase. I don't even know if I ever manage to make one of 'em come true. Bible said not to worry about tomorrow but how can I not? Time is ticking - and it's ticking fast - and I only have one semester to decide whether I stay here or going back home. This is bad.

Being an adult sure is one hell of a hard thing to do.