The Feeling

I have never mentioned it before because I don't want the same thing that happened in the past happening again (like when I was posting about the interview and stuff and bad things happened). So, yeap, I have a job now. Hoorray!

Well, not really, actually.

To be honest, my enthusiasm had lost the minute I had to wait to get trained. And I don't know why, today is the second day of my working day but I still don't feel like I'm enjoying it. Yeah perhaps because I haven't adapted to the new environment and other aspects that also related, but I still don't like it. You might think I'm just being whiny and such a cry-baby, anything, I still can't find a single reason to work there, except that it is the only job that actually hires me and earns me some extra cash.

Remember Friends? I want to be like Rachel who loves her job at Bloomingdales and Ralph Lauren, also like Phoebe with her massage business, Monica who cooks for living, Joey for acting, Ross for being a dinosaur professor. And even Chandler does love his job! (and he hates Thanksgiving!)

So what is wrong with me?? I should've loved my job!! But I can't drop it. I need experience. And money. Also, if I can hang on just a little bit longer until I find a better job, I don't have to be so strict about my spending. So the main reasons are for money, experience, money, and money.

Arrghh!!

Anyway, have you ever had a co-worker who is more experienced than you, and teaching you, and also who is a very good performer of the job, but make you feel so useless and stupid you just wish other person to train or helping you?? Have you ever felt that feeling? Coz that was what I overcome today.

And working in this place, I need to be fast and stuff. Problem is, I am not a fast person. Yeah, I can speak totally fast you might think I'm a rapper but really, my motoric skills are not as fast as my tongue. I'm sure Mr. Liar can confirm this, he always complains about my speed. Right?

That is why I think this job doesn't fit me at all. I should've work in a cubicle or being a secretary - directing calls for bosses, or being a writer. A simple way to put this, I should be a boss. ;) jk. Or movie star! (it's good to dream big :D).

Well well, I have another training session for tomorrow.. And I already got my shift for next week :(( I just can't feel the adrenaline rushes through my veins and triggers my excitement. It should've happened, right??

PS. I work at Mc Donalds.