my own issue

nowadays people really aware about the global warming - it's funny how human never really care before, as a matter of fact that global warming has been told since like twenty years ago - and how the weather's changing.

and i think i should've written something about that. i mean, the main issue of the year: global warming. fashion: go GREEN!! but i'm a human, and as always, i got my own issue.

it's a 17 years old typical girl problem: love and guy. HAHAHA..

seriously, i don't know why it feels like i'm the only who has the worst love life!! i mean, worse than
NN (you know, a friend of mine who is always like oh-my-life-is-the-most-pathetic and i-always-be-a-nobody) at least right now he has one. girlfriend, i mean.

but look at me!! duhh!! i'm seventeen and i haven't even had my first kiss!! err, okay, that's not too bad, i don't wanna kiss some random people anyway.. (okay, i had my first kiss with stephanie - OH NOOO!! - but it was accident, and our lips collided for one nano second so i felt nothing)

and i don't have a boyfriend right now!! == it makes me feel insecure to watch my surroundings are full with love. i mean its like: will my true love ever be?? or am i too picky?? what is wrong with me??? T.T

there are times when i think that maybe if i let myself try with a guy - even though i don't love him - then one day the love will come. but - again - as tasya told me: when i love a guy, i just love him - i can't love someone by time. and i think i'm just like her. not the face, the way we love. :)

i don't say that i want a boyfriend right away. but sometimes i feel alone so lonely.. == i wonder if its because 'the one' hasn't come out or it is just me.. >.<