Back to December

Wow. I didn't post anything in November! Where have I gone?!

Well, well where do I begin? There are so many things on my mind right now I don't know how to start, what to mention first. My head is like a bunch of tangled threads. And I don't want to forget the things that I want to mention here. Gosh!

So let's start with the usual stuff, like the cool fact that I am in Australia right now! And the sad part where I'm not in Sydney :(. Anyways, I've been in Australia since October 25 and I did go to Sydney - :)))) - for a very short time :((((. I met all of my friends - I miss you so much already again - and visit some of my fave place there - Saap Thai, Madang, Market City, Darling Harbour, Hurricane, every place in Sydney is my favorite! We went for karaoke and had soju night like we used to do when I was Sydney. It was very fun. But things have changed too. I met many new faces too, and I couldn't help myself not to feel a bit left out. I mean, I don't know. Sometimes I wish things can just stay the way they were. Everybody is going forward right now. They don't go karaoke anymore. They don't have soju night or movie night as well. Somehow it felt like... Everyone's growing apart. But the good thing is you all still made time to go there with me. I feel very thankful for my short stay in Sydney. I wish I can go back and forth to Sydney anytime I want. How awesome would that be!

But then again, if I were in Sydney right now, will things stay the same? I mean, Fanny is in Makassar preparing her wedding, Adit is going back to Melb very soon - seriously, WHEN?, Ivan with his new relationship, Ryan is busy with work and his IELTS, Luke with his college and university, Candy with her TAFE and Ayu will be busy starting a new life with baby boy - with Ko Willy too, etc.. I mean, will I be enjoying Sydney as much if I was there? One thing for sure, I'd be needing a PT if I live in Sydney because, boy, the food in Sydney cause me mouthgasm.

Oh another thing that I really miss in Sydney is CLC and The Brigades, my dearest church and youth!! They'll be having a Christmas Celebration later this afternoon and I really really really really want to go there and celebrating Christmas with them!! ><

I miss Sydney so damn much.

And a little bit surprisingly I miss my home in Indonesia too. I already miss TWO of my friends' wedding! :( I don't want to miss another one anymore. If I can be in three places at the same time, I'd be super happy. Ha! But the good thing here in Perth - I know right? Perth is borrrinng! - is that I've learned some serious stuff about being a mother. And I have my super cute niece, Brooklyn, that I can play with! Have I mentioned that she's the cutest baby alive?! I mean, I am now freaking out I might love her more than my own kids! She's soooooooo beautiful! I never know I'd love a baby this much. I want to kiss and hug her all the time. All. The. Time. She's cute when she's sleeping, smiling, and she keeps on making that cute baby noises - aguuh, ewuuh, awuh - and melt my heart. She makes Perth so much better!

And talking about Perth, have a guess what I do here everyday! Other than taking care of B of course. Let me give you a clue. It starts with E and ends with asyway. I need help! I already gain a fatty 2 kg since I came! I mean I should've been skinnier since I hold B most of the time! What is happening!! Not to mention, I have major breakout! :( I've got pimples everywhere on my face. I really need help.

I need to talk about other stuff. Like how fast time flies (I said this a lot ey?). I mean it's December! It's almost 'the end of the world' - sarcasm intended. And how unpredictable my life is right now. I mean if two months ago someone told me I would be spending the next three months in Perth, taking care of a baby, I would've laughed it off. And visiting Sydney?? And Melbourne? Tots unpredictable! And how I'm befriending my sister's friends back at Indo. I mean I never see it coming, ever. Or how I befriend my senior in primary school. This whole unpredictability thing that happened recently got me all excited and scared at the same time. I keep on making guesses and predictions about my future. What will happen next year? What will happen next week?

I think my fear got me stumble a little bit. I mean I'm not sure if it's even related but I don't feel too close with God nowadays. It's funny how my faith has been fluctuating very frequently. And it's strange how my previous post was about the fullness of my 'righteous tank'. But I still push myself to do the QT and talk to Him. I just don't feel as connected. I hope this phase will disappear as soon as it appeared. Because the world is going crazy nowadays.

Like, crazy in a devilishly way. I might be the only one in my, err, community, who believe in those 'Illuminati theory'. You can call me crazy or stupid or anything else, but seriously, have you ever read Vigilant Citizen - vigilantcitizen.com ?? As crazy as it sounds, something evil is at work at this world at this very moment. And it is more evil than ever. I had my doubts. And I didn't want to believe in those stuff at first. But look at Ke$ha's Die Young lyrics and video. And hello, Lady Gaga? And also Rihanna. And all the rappers and all those pop stars that started off innocently but then transformed into some sex machine on their second album. And the fact that the rhytm of those songs are very catchy yet with very wrong lyrical content.

Take a look at Bruno Mars. He started off with Just The Way You Are and everyone was like "Aww he's so romantic!" but then "Marry Me" came off and it's still catchy but the lyrics had gone a little bit crazy. And then now he came up with his new single "Locked Out Of Heaven" and it obviously promoting sex -  some of the lyrics are: Cos your sex takes me to paradise - in a wrong way for this generation, I'm afraid. And his other song "Young Girls" is about his 'addiction' to young wild girls. It's not so romantic anymore right? 

And Ok, I DID download those songs - the beat IS awesome - because my sister's husband kept on playing it every single day. And I ended up like the song. I mean I don't do the things that was said in the lyrics, but some - A LOT - younger generations might think, "Y'all it's cool. We gotta party and die young because Ke$ha said so. Sin is so 2013!" True story. And some fans can go very far for their idol pop star. They''ll be like: YOU've changed my life, I'm all about YOU. Stuff like that.

And I haven't finished. If you take a closer look at the fashion world and the music video and MTV nowadays, the things that they promoted are: occultist symbolism - one-eye sign, satanism, inadvertent cross, skull, blood, honestly what are so cool about them? They're not that artistic -, free sex, stupidity - see the show Ridiculousness - and violence. And there's only one word on my mind: WHY?

Why do the media mass go all the way to promote those things, if it not for a bigger, more insidious conspiracy? Just like hell is the real thing, so does The Devil. And it's not only happening in Hollywood. It's everywhere. K-pop, Bollywood, Indonesia. Everything's going crazy. And before I forget, look at Pitbull! Music videos used to be about the singer. And at first there were only kissing scenes. And then girls with bikinis. But recently I saw the bikinis are taken off already! And the girls are hiding their tits on Pitbull's shoulder. And in a lot of music videos they were doing orgy! I'm serious, what's with that? The media mass might try to dumb this society with sex, drugs, and self destruction behaviors in the name of arts, trends, fashion, and swaggy lifestyles. Do not trust the media.

Wow. I've been talking way too much!

But think about it. Be careful of what you see, read, or listen. And sometimes, just because they talk about God, doesn't mean that they are the people of God. See if their actions are as what they say. And if they believe in God and do evil deeds, it's not a permission or a justification for you to do the wrong thing. Because the devil tempted Jesus with scripture. So just. Be careful.

How did I go from my simple life to this heavy topic, I'm not sure, but I think I have delivered what I had in mind. I have to have my beauty sleep NOW. 

Adios!

And Happy Christmas all!

Oh one last thing, there's this email I've got, talking about how society try to make Christmas as a 'normal holiday', without any relation to Christ. Well hello! It's called CHRISTMAS for a reason. So let's make it a Christ's season! Jesus Christ is the reason why we celebrate Christmas. Not Kris Kringle. Or the pine tree. Or even snow. You wrap those gifts, and putting the ornaments on a christmas tree to celebrate His birth. Not to celebrate a 'holiday'. Gosh, what's with this world!